by Thomas S. Buchanan
“The saying is sure and worthy of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners. And I am the foremost of sinners.”
—1 Timothy 1:15
In the Divine Liturgy of the Orthodox Church a prayer is said by all just prior to the Eucharist. In this prayer, each member of the congregation proclaims that he is the chief sinner:
“I believe, O Lord, and I confess that you are truly the Christ, the Son of the Living God, who came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief.”
Because of my training as a scientist, I first found the corporate use of this prayer to be somewhat illogical. How could we all be the chief sinner? Surely, only one of us could be the chief sinner. Of course, if the chief of all sinners is in the room praying with us, then he is the only one being honest in this prayer and the rest of us are liars. And then, the notion that the chief sinner is the only honest one in the room does not make much sense either. Thus, once again I found that Western rationalism had bumped into Eastern theology and left me scratching my head.
Over time, I’ve grown to appreciate the nature of this paradox. Of course, the concept of being the chief sinner comes from St. Paul’s words to Timothy. This is the same Paul who told the Corinthians to “be imitators of me” (1 Cor. 4:16). In his heart of hearts, Paul recognized that although he was an important spiritual leader, he also was a great sinner. And this idea applies to us as well. We have an obligation to show the light of Christ to others, while we beat our breasts in repentance.
The desert fathers describe an ancient practice whereby anyone who joined them to be a monk would be greeted only with insults their entire first year in the desert. In this way, they were taught to see themselves for the sinners that they were. The point was not to be uncharitable, but to teach humility.
“What salt is for food,” wrote Isaac the Syrian, “humility is for every virtue. To acquire it, a man must always think of himself with contrition, self-belittlement and painful self-judgment. But if we acquire it, it will make us sons of God.”
St. Isaac also wrote that “humility is the garment of the Deity.” He argued that just as Jesus humbled himself to take on human form, so we, when we take on humility, become clothed with Christ. St. Augustine put it more succinctly: “The whole of the Christian religion is humility” (tota Christiana religio humilitas est).
To see ourselves as the chief sinner is to look candidly at ourselves before God. It is to see our sins for the terrible, horrible, ugly things that they are. It is to admit, as we stand before the altar, that we have been in league with the Enemy and that we have been traitors to the cause of Christ. In this sense, recognizing and proclaiming “I am the chief sinner” is not an exercise in mock humility, rather an honest reflection of how I see the gravity of my own sins before Almighty God.
Quotes from St. Isaac are taken from Early Fathers from the Philokalia, trans. E. Kadloubovsky and G.E.H. Palmer. Boston: Faber & Faber, 1981.
“To see ourselves as the chief sinner is to look candidly at ourselves before God. It is to see our sins for the terrible, horrible, ugly things that they are.”
Thomas S. Buchanan is a member of the Orthodox Church and lives in Chester County, Pennsylvania, with his wife and three children. He is a senior editor of Touchstone.
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